Some of my earliest memories are just hanging out with Dad as often as I could, trying to be just like him. There’s just something about sitting on your dad’s lap; it’s a feeling that can’t be replicated, reproduced, or replaced. Even though I’m far too big to be sitting on his lap anymore, just being in his presence is close enough to be able to put my mind at ease; regardless of what’s troubling me.
Several times throughout my life, I have sought the opinion and advice of my dad. It seems like the older I get, the more I value his advice too. There have been some big life-changing decisions I’ve had to make, and he’s been there with me every step of the way. I’ve shared with him the joyous news of me becoming a father myself, I’ve gone to him for comfort when I was going through my divorce, and I’ve spent time with him at his shop – just to spend time with him, to listen to him, to watch him, and to learn from him.
There have been a few times where I thought I was going to lose my dad. Like the time he got ran over by a semi, or the time he fell ill and was in the hospital for a bit. Every time something like that would happen I would pray my heart out – asking God for more time – I couldn’t stand to lose my hero like that. So far I’ve been incredibly blessed and afforded the opportunity to be able to spend more time with him. I thank God for that every day.
Over the years, that overall goal of making my dad proud has never changed. I’ve always tried to do the right things to put myself in a position that would allow my dad to speak highly of me whenever he would talk about me. Sure, there were some stray youthful indiscretions from time to time (sorry about your truck, Dad), but I think I’ve done a really good job of keeping my nose clean and making our last name, Shue, something to be proud of.
Dad, I know it’s incredibly tough for you, not having your dad around. I know you think about him every day. I wish I could have had the chance to meet him. I know he’d be extremely proud of the man you are today. I just hope that I can be at least half the man you are someday. You are my hero. I love you, Dad! Happy Father’s Day!