Ok, I’ve decided to go ahead and present you with the present day circumstances. I’ll fill you in on the back stories later. So here is my current situation; my wife, Amber, and I are separated. I’m living in the house we purchased about two years ago in Lebanon; alone. Our son Rolen (more about him later) stays with me on the days that I don’t have to work. I’m not certain what the future holds for me just yet, but I know that one day really soon, I won’t be living in that house; the Shue Ranch as it’s come to be known. We are going to have to eventually sell the house and move about our separate ways. I am not mad or bitter about anything that has happened so far. As sad as this is, there are actually several good things to come of all of this.
The number one best thing that’s come of this separation, it has brought me closer to God. It has revitalized my relationship with Him in ways that are unfathomable. I never even realized that my relationship with Him was getting so weak. I started doing things on my own, thinking I was invulnerable, untouchable even. That couldn’t have been further from the truth! It was when I started trying to “walk on my own” that He reminded me that I needed a swift kick in the rear…and this separation…this is how He was going to remind me that I need Him! My faith in Jesus Christ has been restored, and in many ways, strengthened because of everything that is taking place right now. Thank you Lord!
Another good thing that has come of this, it has strengthened my relationship with Rolen. There were many days before now, when I was just too tired to even spend quality time with him. I was taking things for granted, always thinking to myself that he will always be there to play with, he will always want to throw the ball, he will always want to play cars. When he and I are together on my days off work now, all we do is spend quality time together. Building and strengthening our relationship…that father/son bond that I want to be so strong! We are together making memories that will last a lifetime…memories that money can’t buy! I could go on and on about my little buddy, but I’ll save that for another entry on another day.
Friends. Through all of this, I’ve come to realize who my true friends are. To me, they are the people who realize that something is going on even when I put on my happy face. They are the ones who are there to talk to me no matter what hour of the night it is. I understand that some people may not want to “get in the middle” of things, I really do. But I also understand the value of a strong friendship. They are the ones who will tell you when you’re wrong and they will tell you when you’ve been wronged. They are the ones who give you advice when it’s asked for and they are the ones who will sit there and listen, when all you need is to vent about things. A true friend will randomly contact you just to simply see how you’re doing. When I was at my darkest hour, that’s when my true friends really shined their light onto my darkness. For these friends, I am eternally grateful!
I am sure there are other great things that are coming from this current situation, and I promise I am not trying to overlook them. There are many things that are God’s Will that I have not, nor cannot see just yet. I will see them when He’s ready for me to see them. And how great it will be once I am fully enlightened. Which brings me to the Bible verse I would like to share with you. Today that verse comes from Ecclesiastes. Chapter 4, verses 9 and 10:
“Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up.
But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up.” – Ecclesiastes 4:9-10
To me, these verses show the importance of friendship. This is especially true during hard times in which one of the friends “falls down.” Friends will always be there to help pick each other up. This couldn’t be truer for me right now. When I didn’t think I had the strength to go on, it was God and my friends who I relied on to help me up. To Him and my friends – Thank you!